orangelyn's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- CrossRoads yapleee. so many things, so little time. oh well... still gotta cope with it. really. might or shall i say would be meeting him next week. really cranky and nervous. i wonder. XD. haha... so i am really stressed out. mentally and physically. he had ask if i would date a guy like him. i said yes. then i was like... why? u like another girl? he went: nah, like u... god... i thought i was going to faint. i was practically grinning the shit out of myself in e maths class. not to mention screaming too. probably the most wonderful one. then i replied: like a mei huh? he: beyond that... u want to be with me? be mine... me: i dunnoe... i am only fifteen. he: i dun mind. me: call u later ya? he: ok. thats it. i thought bout it and decided that i needed more time. yeah. told him. he agreed that it was too fast too. so now, still kor and mei. XD thats the best day of my life. 2nd september 2003. i am probably off my rockers i reckon. aniwae. my aussie friend is cumming over. XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD. met this guy called ken. sounds really nice. and another horny one. same name as my cuzzie. derek. dammm.... i was talking on the phone with him. not phone sex. then finally... derek: can i tell u sumting? me: wat? d: i was masting just now. me: OMG!!! thats it. but he apologized though. sorry... i am a sucker for guys with nice manners. blabber. lena said it was just fate. dammit. i wanna watch unborn. but NC-16. hopefully i will sneak in. lol... i wonder what i would do if i got caught. XD so... that was what happened. pleasent and unpleasent. he is going to call. i am waiting. having pms. so temper really short. haha. really got to control now. i am worried that i am not good enough for him. thats why. humps. =( i dunnoe what to do. i dun think min and lena and joyce approve of this. i know they dun. i think. i think i have let them down sort of. feel gulit. but i really can't forget him. it is really hard and everytime i close my eyes i think of him. i should be a nun. no... i will be condemmed to hell on the first day. thinking bout him. most prob. he is affecting my studies and i know it. i am scared and worried but i feel safe and secure. weird. i want a Psychologist i think it will work. bleeba. i mean he is 21 and i am like 15. 6 years diff. yet they say that love is blind... har. but still... sorta uneasy. wish me luck with him. today when he calls hopfully. no cheers... lyn. 5:31 p.m. - 2003-09-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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