orangelyn's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- healings of the wounds okeee.. sighs. i'm zick.. real sick.. cough, flu, sore throat, breathing difficulty.. dotx. dearie's at his old school now. having his guest of honour thingy. happee.. haha.. i reckon i'll be suffocating soon.. *gasp* i see dotx... cough and cough..this is sooo sad ya know? having this kinda stuff when CNY is cumming. *sobs* darling..darling.. dis is bad. i tot it was a practical joke. thought is the word. but it seems that i'm falling deeper for u each and everyday. i should just try star-gazing.. the remedy for the confused state of mind.. sighs.. i feel as if i'm in a drama set or sumthing.. but sayang.. i do love u.. wonder if it'll last.. i hate to think bout the future.. u sae u love me too.. but it's just words.. will it end? i just want to hold u tight but i dunnoe wad is holding me back so strongly.. i do feel for u but i'm afraid that i'll wake up one day and find that it is a dream.. i'm afraid.. i really.. do.. i tried to forget u.. my mind doesn't listen.. i tried to hate u, my heart goes its own way.. but when i'm lost and cold, i'll always know that u'll be there for me.. am i asking too much? i doubt so.. i tried to re sort out things.. to understand the complexity of the human mind.. i tried.. but., it ain't working somehow.. i feel so protected to wanted by u.. i feel at ease.. i just can't sae that i'm the right one for u.. u might just get fond of another and dreams will shatter.. i really can't afford to lose u.. i can't.. i'm in deep shit. dats wat i think i know.. they say that true love is not found by searching.. but by luck.. but darling.. i'm so glad i found u. sure.. u've made me cry and broken my heart at times.. but ur love for me heals the wounds and calms my soul.. i do cherish u.. but i'm afraid if i do lose u, i'll never learn to love another again.. never.. i'm in a dilemma.. i hope to be with u, through out ur life.. to stay by ur side.. to be ur wife.. i want to.. but it doesn't seem real.. it all seems too perfect.. i have never gotten angry with u, never gotten into an argument with u.. you've just so willing and giving.. and i love u for that... i'll just treasure the times we're having, the happie times we've been through.. it won't be forgotten ever... i want to love u forever.. but is it possible.. we'll see.. alright.. enuff of the self -absorbed blabbering.. mr tan is going through another A MATHS topic that is alienic to me. hics and sobs. sighs.. flag day is very near... like nxt sat. going to play pool at monsterque.. muhahahahahahaha... poofs. yupx.. man i love my peeps. oh well... i shall divert my attention to dearie den.. haha.. love him too much.. hey but at least it's A HE ALRIGHT!!!!!?? lol.. kk den darlings out dere..take care and see u people in school soon! :) hugs and kisses: lyn :) 9:36 a.m. - 2004-01-10 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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