orangelyn's Diaryland Diary
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dream on bastard
things started off on a good note.
maybe i just woke up on the right side of da bed.
-thinks again-
i'm spared from going to skool.
which means no staying back fer A.low's death torture lessons.
it reall gets me on mah nerves sometimes.
esp when she blabbers on and on.
bout stuff which are already drilled in us.
just ask safy.
she's got stories ta tell.
hoho.
reckon she thought so to.
besides, there also social studies.
another killer lecture!
-sighs sighs-
lucky lucky i'm not dere.
so much fer not making known my presence.
((((x
talked ter ah-ma last night.
round 12++?!
kinda like smsed herr.
thought she was half-way through dreamland.
buutt.
-surprise surprise-!!
she called ter ch-check on me.
like i said.
24/7 friend!
-hugs hugs hugs-
somehow, she managed to make me laugh.
hehs. that gurrl.
she does things her way ya' know?
discussed the open case topic of him.
as usual.
the curses and the upsets came out.
sighs sighs
discovered stuff i never knew.
bout ying and stuff.
poor girl.
and i thought mah life was shyt.
oh boy. oh boy.
the call brightened up things a lil.
still dere's still stains you can't wash away.
they just fade.
seriously.
i really must get crackin up.
mah studies! mah studies.
i hafta be the old me.
the mugging during prelims were actually much more then the preps fer Os?
-screams
study study study.
i'm way hell tryin ter evoke this passion fer books.
c'mon. like it was ever borne in me.
-evil grins-
aye. aye. still i have to.
mah study plan.
i've yet to recover it again.
last minute studying isn't gonna save mah ass from being burnt yer know?
yes yesh.
this explains it all.
betta get my sugarie ass off and get down ter buisness.
i feel like a nerd
oh no.
-pulls hair out-
i refused to admit.
-argh ugh frumps-
wake wake wake up lyn.
thinking and talking about things gets you N O where.
action babe!!
Plans fer today
Do mah math papers that gan ma gave. (1
Attempt to work out (2
Finish off history (3
Complete biology notes (4
e . n . d
that should do the trick.
hehs.
at least i won't feel so bad fer not going to skool.
naughty naughtee girl.
i don't give two fucks.
((((:
it's not as if they are having lessons at skool.
or i hope they're not.
btw.
the skool is printing papers like it's free.
hello?
be more enviromental friendly.
oh rytes lyn.
if you ever are.
you'd be wearing recycled paper clothes by now.
jeez.
one have to study fer urself.
agrees.
then it's so hard.
and painful just looking at mah books.
not favoured.
not yearned for.
not sought after.
truly. i have to hand it to mah parents for putting up with me.
wished i had an older bro though.
then again.
i'm too pampered.
hehs.
mah ex's begging me to patch with him.
again
what??!!!
fucks.
no way in hell.
afterall the pain you've put me thru.
now you're saying that i dumped you.
oh yesh!!!
fucks! i D I D dump you.
why?!
ask yerself.
bastard.
you let me down so many times.
after all the chances i've given you.
yet you're saying it's mah fault?!!
oh please.
just.
oh so.
w h a t e v e r
i don't give a hoot bout you anymore.
if you think it's mah fault.
then don't come begging me.
trying to lick my boots.
fuck off.
-UGH!!!
did you really think that i'll let you walk in and out on me one more time?
-laughs
maybe only after i've lost mah mind.
dreams baby. dream on.
too bad baby.
it's wayyy too late.
it's was your lost you didn't cherish me when i was yours.
since you wanted to play.
fool around.
you've all the choice to do so.
it your fault.
it's not me that can't live without you.
the other way now.
other way.
now it's you that come back crying saying you need me.
bullshit.
i'm buyin no lies ain't no more.
you just kept saying you'll change.
i'm afraid i'll never live to see it.
it's not fair.
you know it.
remember.
i don't need you to say things like i love you.
just fucking be there when i need you.
you were never there.
always away.
aways baby.
how do you supposed that i'll place mah trust in you again?
you're not worth mah love no more.
not worth mah trust.
go find yer lil lady.
can't find yer lady?
my heart bleeds fer ya.
don't come back to me.
i ain't taking you in.
goodbye.
and don't call me darling.
i'm not yours.
just that word from you irks me.
get out.
hmmms.
have a date with my big older cousins.
hohos.
i'm the lil sister in between.
and supposedly the eye candy of my parents.
hahs!
meeting dem' at rek's crib at eight.
oh yeah.
he's got the pc i would die to have.
pig pig!!
will be going to gardens fer ice-cream!
yays!
rek's treat.
i hope. i hope.
easy darling will be coming along too.
i have to bring her out.
it's been ages!!
oh-too-long.
just went over yest to see her.
so cute.
love love love!!
took pictures x)
i love love love her so.
hehes.
she's such a darling.
can't take mah mind off herrr.
ooh. baby.
think i won't be going fer tution later.
kinda tired.
-ywans
btw.
all the "mah's" are to irritate mingu!!
hoho!!
-grins grins
love! love! love!
((((:
i need mah space to breathe
let it out.
all out.
i'm so sick of the lies you tell.
tired of being your toy.
just leave me alone.
and go away.
this toy's not yours no more.
this gurl.
she lives her life.
fer her own.
and no one else.
she's nobody's fool.
10:59 am - Thursday, Oct. 14, 2004
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